Jim's Secret Thoughts

So now what? OK, so life is changing or has changed. It’s not like it used to be. It’ll never be the same again. What am I here for anyway? What’s this life all about?

I want answers. I want to find meaning to what is happening in my life. I am looking for direction. Or, what is it, that word, purpose!

Is there really a purpose to life? Can anyone truly say that they are here on this planet living in this body to fulfill a specific purpose?

Wow! That raises a bunch of questions. If I have a purpose, then who gave me that purpose? Who decided that is what I should be or do? And where and when was that decided?

Right, so let me get this straight. If this was decided before I got here then someone must have known I would be born. And if that is so then I must have known them. This is crazy. This is way out there. This is Moon and Mars stuff. So I had an existence before this life? So maybe I decided, or at least agreed, on what my purpose should be.

Then I was born and forgot all about it. Hmm. That means this was intended to be a journey of self discovery. But something in me, something about my make up, perhaps my DNA, would guide me towards that purpose.

But wait a minute. What if I can’t hear that inner guiding? What if I am totally unaware of any inner anything? Like what I am now. Hey, wait another minute. If I’m not getting the guidance then all this mess, this turmoil in my life right now, must be because I am off track, out of purpose. Oh my God! So getting back on track, getting the mess sorted out is to hear the inner guidance.

Great! Super! Just one problem. How on earth do I hear my inner guidance? That must be intuition, right? Whatever that is. So, there’s a part of me which knows what I am supposed to be doing here. And there is a part of me which doesn’t know. Now all I need to do is to connect the two parts and have the one communicate with the other.

Right, but how do I do that? Meditation! Now that sounds like a good way. But there are so many different forms of meditation. Now what is it that they all have in common? Stillness. Getting quiet. Quieting the mind. Getting the thoughts to shut up, or at least to be able to ignore them. Yes, then I will be able to hear my inner voice, that inner, spiritual part of me. Then I will have direction. I will know what is my purpose and I will receive inspiration and knowledge in order to begin pursuing my life’s purpose.